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[12 Oct 2002|04:46pm] [ mood | cold ] I know it's been awhile, and I'm sorry for that. I've been busy well, killing people to be quite blunt about it. That and Omitchi's been hogging the computer. Granted, it's his damn thing anyway, but eh, oh well. I woke up to a nice surprise this morning. What was it you ask? Well, it was Aya's lips against my own. I'm not sure how he bypassed my defenses (according to Yohji I lash out if anyone comes near me while I'm sleeping), but it was the nicest thing to wake to. I'm not really sure how I should feel about well, a lot of things. Considering he kissed me and then he left. I'm thinking about talking to Manx about this, but with my luck Yohji'll end up finding out and bust me out in front of everyone. He almost did that once. You see, he knows I like Aya, but he hasn't said anything because he'll get the occasional blow job out of it in exchange for that silence. Anyway, during our mission against Estet and to get ayachan back, Omi told us to be careful. Now, knowing that I was particularly on edge for Aya that night, Yohji patted me on the back and went "hear that Ken, be careful." I blushed furiously, and Omi just blinked. Well, as it turned out, Omi was the one who screwed up, but that really wasn't his fault, the floor kinda shook him off balance. Now, Omi thinks Yohji and I have a thing, but we don't. I tried to explain to him once that I just suck his cock every once and awhile to keep him quiet about something, and Omi's now on his own personal mission to find out what it is he has to keep quiet about. Anyway, that's my labyrinth. I don't know really quite how to solve a lot of it. I know that I need to be with Aya, but he hasn't expressed much in the way of interest in me, considering he ignored me for the rest of the day and told me I was useless. Then that schwartz bastard Crawford came in the shop demanding flowers. Ugh, oh well. I'll write more later. I Don't Like Hell [[ Disclaimer ]]

[07 Oct 2002|07:44pm] Which Weiss seiyuu are you? </font> this so figures I Don't Like Hell [[ Disclaimer ]]

Well... [07 Oct 2002|06:08pm] [ mood | drained ] I did it... Last night, after the mission. I kissed him. What happened you ask? Well, he turned around and walked away, just left me there. The taste of him still lingering on my lips. It was, uncommonly sweet, to be trapped in a long deep kiss with him. I liked it quite a bit. However, I don't think it'll be happening again anytime soon. *sigh* This is what happens when a killer falls in love, isn't it? I Don't Like Hell [[ Disclaimer ]]

[06 Oct 2002|06:32pm] [ mood | cold ] I'm Ken! Which Wei?Kreuz Gluhen character are you? well duh I Don't Like Hell [[ Disclaimer ]]

This cross of sin... [06 Oct 2002|02:35pm] [ mood | exhausted ] I willingly bore. is weighing me down. Pulling on my soul, tugging at my heart. Telling me I have no right no right to feel, no right to think, no right to exist. This cross of sin... It eats me up inside. It's killing me. I don't know what else to do. I quit my coaching job. I can't handle being around little kids anymore, especially since I killed one of their fathers a couple days ago. He was a drug lord. Smuggling in and out of the country this drug that would get you incredibly high, but then kill you after about five minutes. It was untraceable in the blood stream. So, it was just like he was murdering people. You can't come in contact with a drug like that and expect to be alright. Yohji fell into a whole barrel of the shit, and I think it's effected him a bit, but I don't know. I'm not a doctor, I'm a goalie. I was offered a spot back on the national team again. They finally realized that I had been drugged by someone else, not me. It feels good to have my name cleared, but I refused it. That would mean leaving Weiss for good, and as much as I'd like that, I'll follow Aya to the ends of the world. Until he's at peace with himself, and I'm able to fade into the background like I always do. They don't notice me. Maybe because I'm the screw up. Maybe because I just sit there and I don't do as much as they do. Maybe because I hate this, but I understand it. I'm not like Omi, I know why this is done, and I know it has to be done. I don't like the way I'm being drawn in the second season. I think that Omi's off the worst of all of us. He doesn't look like himself. Though Aya's hair got darker, and so did Yohji's a bit. I just look...funky. I don't like the new gear I'm wearing. It doesn't look right with my bugnuck, and roumer has it that we're getting two new members. We don't need new people, we're fine the way we are right now. I don't need anyone else to ignore me. And anyway, all I want is his peircing violet gaze to fall upon me. To get a smile out of him once again. I did it once, though I'm not sure how. I'm going to sign off now. I'm on AIM and no one's talking to me. I don't bite, unless I'm ordered to. Does that make me a robot? I Don't Like Hell [[ Disclaimer ]]

Kowaii desu... [05 Sep 2002|08:05pm] [ mood | contemplative ] Wow...that's all I have to say is wow. I didn't think that this mission would be as hard as it was. It started out like normal. Persia giving us our target, Aya brooding, and the lot. Well, we got to the factory and spotted the target, and that part of the mission went flawlessly. But then that Schwartz bastard, Schuldig showed up. Grrr. I fuckin' hate him. God, why the hell does he have to read my mind. It makes me so damn pissed. Anyway, he just stood behind me, had me frozen in his psychic grip, and wouldn't shut up. The voice was really soft. He was in my head, and telling me my feelings for Aya. *sigh* Yeah, I know I like him as more than my best friend, but it can't be anymore than that. I mean...Aya's cold, and aloof...there's no way I could penetrate his defenses. Hell, he's even cold to Omitchi and everyone loves him. So, here I am, holding in all these feelings. Yohji saw me soon after and asked me what was up. I couldn't bring myself to give him any details, just that I saw Schu. That seemed to suffice for awhile. I just hope it does for awhile longer. I'm not sure if I can restrain from kissing him after a mission. I don't think even I know how much he means to me, and how relieved I am to see him alive in the end. Even though...it's not the end. Will it ever end? I'm sick of killing like this. When I killed Kase... He'd thought he'd kill me before. Said he'd sent me to hell. My response was "I don't like hell" and then he shot at me, but I was wearing my bullet proof vest. That's when I came at him with my bugnuck, and just, killed him. His last words were "I'll see you in hell". Quietly, I replied, "This is hell." Because it is. My life. Fuck, it's hell. Trying to not let killing like I do at night effect who I am during the day. Granted, I'm not the brightest bulb in the tree, but I have enough sense to know what's wrong and right. I realize these people have done crimes that can't be punished by law, and that's why we kill them. That's why we destroyed Takatori, and Estet... Who our enemy is now, I don't know. I don't care. I've quit Weiss twice now, and somehow I keep getting pulled back into it. It's him that draws me here. I know it. I can't stand by idlely when I know he's in danger, I have to be out there with him. With all the cuts, and scars, and shots I've had thrown my way, I'm amazed I'm still alive, amazed I have somesort of motivation to go forward. Amazed that I can lead a normal life. I'm a criminal... I'm a muderer... I'm a florist... I am Weiss. 2 Went There - I Don't Like Hell [[ Disclaimer ]]

Arigatou, ne [04 Sep 2002|09:35pm] [ mood | accomplished ] I would like to personally thank Honda-san for my kick ass layout and icons. Arigatou Gozaimasu!! Anou...I had more to say. I just can't remember it at the moment. Sou ka! I was trying to sign up for AIM. Well, Omi was trying to show me how. Hai, we all know how...easily distracted I am. So, thinking up an SN wasn't very easy. So, I am simply LJ Ken Hidaka . Weiss Siberian was taken already, otherwise I would've used that. It's a good name, ne? Hai, well I'm off to bed now. Oyasumi nasai, minnasan! I Don't Like Hell [[ Disclaimer ]]

YOSH'! [04 Sep 2002|06:48pm] [ mood | excited ] Konbanwa, minnasan! Boku wa Hidaka Ken! Right, and I'm going to try my best to do this all in English. Oi, this is hard. I probably should've studied more in school. Well, My name is Ken Hidaka. Ken2 to my friends, and Siberian to my co-workers. You may know me from the series Weiss Kreuz in which my voice was so accurately brought to life by the wonderful Tomokazu Seki-san. Of course, when my likeness was brought to America Animeworks so badly destroyed the entity that is me. I sound like an idiot. Man, who ever voiced me had to have been on crack. I do NOT like Schoen...grr. Anyway, you can find me on DVD at Suncoast under the title "Knight Hunters" I don't get why they changed it to that. "Night Hunters" I could understand, but...eh. Anyway, I kill people and work at a flower shop with my friends. Kakoii ne? I used to be a J-League soccer player. That is, until my best friend put a drug in my water, and made it look like I threw the championships. I got banned from playing ever since. *sigh* It's a tough life, being Ken. Currently, I'm living above the Koneko. My room is right next to Yohji's which is okay when he doesn't have a stream of hoes running in and out. Maa, I can't believe that guy. My main adversary is Farfarello, a psychotic Irish man in a rival assassin group called Schwartz. He's...yeah. He's on a one man quest to hurt God. Then there's this german guy, Schuldich. He's...well, he's psychic and I think he wants my bod. Kowaii... I'd rather stay at home with Aya and...I don't know, just be with him. He's my best friend. So, yeah. I suppose I should make some icons and a layout, ne? sore ja, Ken 2 Went There - I Don't Like Hell [[ Disclaimer ]]

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